update

So I’m not sure but I don’t think the operation was a total success but I think I’m still technically recovering from it as it’s still draining (gross I know) Still get a swimmy head, Gloopy ears and such but my hearings improved a bit and I don’t feel like I’m going to collapse if I do more than walk.

Hope everyone had a fab festive holidays whether you celebrate Christmas or Hanukah or any other festive holidays. I managed to go out and see my friends the Wednesday and Thursday before. The Wednesday we went to red hot and had a lovely all you can eat buffet and Thursday some of us went to town in our onesies after playing games at the birthday girl’s house. (Went a little dizzy when we out but after a sit down and drink I felt alright)

Tomorrow is New years eve and I’m going to babysitting. I’m made up because I’ve been babysitting this family of kids for 7 years and I haven’t seen them too much this year and I miss them. I hope everyone has a fab new years eve and new years day and just remember don’t get too drunk! x

Operation

So I had my operation yesterday. It was a very L O N G day. I’d planned to be up at 5.45am but ended up waking up at 5.20. I got to the hospital by 6.45 and checked in. The receptionist gave me a funny look and was like you’ve come in your pyjamas? I was like well yeah the letter said nightgown and slippers etc. She was like well you should be wearing normal clothes. So I sat there in my pyjamas as the room filled with people in regular clothing. We weren’t allowed anyone with us so I was totally alone and my appointment was at 7am. I wasn’t called down to theatre until 11.30. By then I had already been up for 6 hours. I laid on the bed and they hooked me up to a heart monitor. One nurse was chatting to me and being lovely and I could just hear this rapid beeping. Two drs came to see me and one commented on my heart rate (that was the rapid beeping and believe me it was very rapid lol) one doctor said “well wouldn’t your heart be racing if you were about to have an operation?” the other doctor went “not like that no. Here’s something to calm you down” He put a cannular in my hand and I watched him inject this small amount of clear liquid (plus I was given oxygen). Then he put in ‘the milk’ which makes you sleep.

As he did this I was thinking I wonder when the drowsiness will kick in. Next thing I know I’m hearing voices. One mentioned I knocked my cannular out of my hand as I was coming around. I remember trying to open my eyes but I couldn’t. They wheeled me to my room and I started feeling very sick and I remember asking them to take the mask off because I felt like I was going to puke. They went ok we’ve given you something to take it away. I kept trying to move my arms and legs to jolt myself awake and I asked for water because my lips were so chapped and my tongue was stuck to the roof of my mouth because it was so dry. Then when I came around properly I realised I couldn’t see properly (one risk was eye damage) and I rubbed my eye… They’d put Vaseline on my eyes and not told me.

Once I rubbed it off and came around my mum was there and she was only allowed to see me for 3 minutes. I’d been in theatre for 2 hours (the nurse said 40 mins if I didn’t need too much work maybe less so I obviously needed a lot of work) mum went and I looked down to find a cannular hanging out of my arm where they’d left it and a patch on either hand (which is now two very colourful bruises) I also had a bandage under my nose (and over my lip) I was given some soup and I got it all over my bandage and I said to the nurse I can feel my nose bleeding a lot. Her reply was “it’s just soup” I was like no I mean under the bandage! She went “that’s just hot air” She soon realised how much I was bleeding when she had to change it 3 times because I kept bleeding through.

By the time I got home I had been in hospital for 12 hours and then I had to change my bandage 3 times and to be honest I did it better than the nurse because it took much longer to bleed through and it didn’t get in my way. I wasn’t given anything for pain or any drops for my nose. Instead I was given a recipe and a syringe to make the stuff myself to douche out my nose. I asked the nurse what would I do if I sneezed her reply was don’t sneeze… I’ve sneezed like 30 times and fuck all happened. The nurse also gave me bandages to take home but no tape (thankfully I had some micropore surgical tape from when my dad cut his leg when he fell off the ladder, unluckily for me it was in the car and dad was at work until 11pm so I just dealt with sticky tape) I also wasn’t told to sleep with my head propped up to avoid blood going into my throat but luckily mum told me and I said I’d sleep on the couch so as not to slide flat on my back. I didn't sleep until about 1.30 because there was good TV on haha

Right now I have a bit of a stuffed nose and sore throat and I can’t bend over in case it sets the bleeding off. Cant go out for two weeks but luckily its 2 weeks and a day until I see my friends (I think) so I should be fine to go out. I’ve really missed my friends and haven’t seen most of them since Easter or last Christmas where I’ve just not been well enough to go out.

I was told the operation wasn’t guaranteed to work but so far it seems much better I just have to wait and see.

One of those days

So today I was meant to go shopping with my parents (after my ECG) while my brothers and sister were at school. We get to town and get a call from the school nurse asking us to take my brother to the hospital (long story short he hurt his arm and the walk in centre said fracture they were wrong he’s broke his wrist) so we spent all day in the hospital with him and I went to find out when my operation was going to be and they said they’d ring me. When they rung they said “you’re not due til late January, early February but there’s been a cancellation so how’s next Wednesday for 7am?” I obviously had to say yes so now my operation is next Wednesday seriously early and I should be home by mid- late afternoon (best be back for hollyoaks lol) I may or may not be online because I don’t know how I’m going to feel so if I’m gone don’t worry (if you even notice lol!)

I’m a tiny bit worried but not much (that’ll come as I’m sitting waiting in hospital)

birthday week

So this week there's been 3 family birthdays.

First was my dad's on the 7th and I got him some new shoes that he chose beforehand (good job he did because his feet are size 7 yet these shoes ended up at 8.5)

Then it was mine on the 8th. My 12 year old sister got her mates dad to make me a t-shirt of Maxi which totally rocks. Got some awesome stuff off my parents too including loads of awesome new clothes :D

Today was my mum's birthday. I was excited for this more than my birthday because I had a great idea which today came into practice and worked.My family watch this thing on TV called Hollyoaks (if you're outside of UK I don't think you'll know it) and the guy she fancies in it has recently done a movie. So I bought the movie and got a photo cake of Emmett Scanlan (the one she really likes) and Danny Mac (2nd fave) and she loved that too (especially with where I put the candles haha) I got my sister to make her some "posters" and a t-shirt too she loved th presents :)


We didn't do anything for our birthdys except go out for breakfast. I'm now 20, mum's 40 and dad's 41. We didn't do anything but it was still fun

Just an update

Been feeling crap since yesterday. Light headed, nauseas and aching. This is all part of the sinus problems I have and I actually want this operation soon because while I’ll be nervous going in I know that it’ll end all this shitty feelings and I’ll be able to live my life normally. I’ll be able to go out without a second thought and without taking tablets with me. I won’t have to worry about randomly going deaf when people talk to me and I won’t constantly be thinking “What if I’m sick?” or “What if I pass out?”

My Doctor said it’s like being travel sick. You know when you were a kid and you’d be feeling like you’re about to throw up in your dad’s brand new car and then you’d panic and go dizzy? That’s what I get almost every day. Some (like yesterday and right now) worse than others. I gotta go back and see my doctor very soon but lately I’ve been so tired I haven’t been getting up early enough for an appointment because they’re usually gone within minutes.

Just sitting and waiting for this letter to come through telling me when I’m having this flaming operation now. I know I’m going to be nervous but I can handle that and it’s only natural. I’m ok at the moment but I usually get the worry when I get there. Will keep you up to date if any of you are actually interested. I’m glad I have people that read this because to be honest I thought I’d just be twittering on with no one paying any attention. It’s nice to have this blogger so I can say how I’m feeling at the time as well as doing some interesting stuff (Kind of) My life isn’t very interesting at the moment I know but I’ll try my best to make it entertaining or at least worth a read. Love you all night x

A lifeguard once said this and it stuck with me ever since: “It’s impossible.” said pride. “It’s risky.” said experience. “It’s pointless.” said reason. “Give it a try.” whispered the heart.

One the guys might find interesting...

So I’m just gonna chat about cars and football and formula one racing. Just a countdown of them really.

Cars


Lamborghini Gallardo - favourite colour: Yellow,

Lamborghini Reventon - favourite colour: Black

Lamborghini Murcielago - favourite colour: White

Bugatti Veyron 2013 - favourite colour: Grey

BMW super car concept - favourite colour: Red

Audi spyder - favourite colour: White

Audi r8 - favourite colour: Red

Top gear episodes

The episode where they go camping! (BEST EPISODE!!!)

Crossing the English channel in an amphibious car

Driving up the deadly mountain

Taking on the snowmobile

The top gear rocket

Football players

Well as I’m a Liverpool fc supporter (And England of course) this won’t be hard.

Gerard

Suarez

Reina (Best goalie going)

Agger

Beckham

F1 racing

Just Louis Hamilton and Jenson Button really (I do know plenty more I just like these two)

I’m sorry but this is horrible! http://gawker.com/5955232/trolls-try-to-convince-beliebers-to-shave-their-heads-by-spreading-rumor-that-justin-bieber-has-cancer you don’t JOKE about things like cancer! Who cares if some girls shaved their heads for “Justin”? These people should get into trouble not the lifeguards that got fired for doing gangnam style. Justin does not have cancer it was just a bunch of idiots pretending he did and doing things like making videos and photos to that effect with “fans” who had already gone #BaldForBieber I don’t care whether this was Justin Bieber or the people I hate the most cancer is NOT something to joke about!

I myself am not shaving my hair but for months I have been growing my hair with the intentions of getting it cut short so that it can be donated to be made into a wig. This is nothing to do with me thinking that Justin had cancer I have been following Avalanna (as most of you know) and another little girl called Claudia. She sometimes wants to have hair back but they don’t make wigs the right fit for children and Claudia’s wig was itchy and horrible. In the end she preferred to be bald. So as soon as I feel my hair is long enough I’m donating it.



http://www.facebook.com/#!/pages/Claudias-Cause/203760479672217 Please like Claudia’s facebook page. They’re looking for 40,000 by tomorrow.

bloody hamster! #rant

I'm not enjoying my sister having a hamster. He got stuck in his tube and I got him out and he bit me to the point where my thumb was bleeding for like 10-15 mins. My parents got rid of my hamster (when I as like 7) for that (butmine NEVER bit like that) but they've kept Nibbler. My sister is driving me insane telling everyone off for making a noise because the precious hamster is trying to sleep. Then she tells my brothers they were so loud last night that the poor iccle baby is too tired this morning.... IT'S NOCTURNAL OF COURSE IT'S TIRED! She knows this and she spends all day out and all night with the hamster and keeps locking the dog out so the hamster can have a scurry around in it's ball. She's completely ignoring all other pets including her cat and she's already tried palming the hamter off on me the night she got him.

The poor other pets (3 cats, a dog and countless rabbits) are all being ignored and she's stoppd doing her only job of feeding the rabbits wich has been dumped on me and dad. She's such a pain! She's only had it just over 48 hours but as soon as she brought it in the house she was being too over protective of it going NOBODY TOUCH IT DON'T DO THIS DON'T DO THAT! (that was to me and my mum! We know how to take care of animals we've looked after every animal in the house) Sorry rant over but this bloody hamster is doing my head in and so isthe way my sister acts over it.

50 shades of grey review

Just a random blog about the book that people went mental for. 50 shades of grey. Ok so basically shy virgin stumbles across the path of man who doesn’t “make love he just fucks” and basically he’s falling in love with her and she’s falling for him it’s nothing special. I’ve stopped reading it because it got so boring. I had like 3 chapters left, no way could I make it through another 2 books!

Some of it made you a little hot under the collar but it’s honestly nothing special and I’ve read a lot stronger stuff. Mum thought I’d go bright red but honestly I didn’t. Everyone was all hyped up over this book and there’s nothing to get excited over.

Drift of this blog: 50 shades of grey is NOTHING special.

fab year!

Had such a fantastic year so far! Met Panic! At the disco via meet & greets and we gave them a “lern yaself Scouse” book and the boys loved it and even took a video backstage and Brendon was having a read of it J We got pictures with them too and I stood next to Spencer and Ian \o/



I also got to go on a hangout with the Bondi rescue lads which was amazing! Couldn’t stop laughing and it was great to be able to talk to them face to kinda face J In that I met Jesse! Yeah he hadn’t come into the uk at the time but after the last season I now know he’s an awesome lifeguard and fits in perfectly with the others J From that I got a kiss off Maxi *blushing*

I’ve also had some amazing followers and chats to people on my twitter and Google+ and each time I get a little bit hyper (Just a little bit I swear haha) I totally love my twitter and Google+ !

Also mine and mums coffee morning raised over £130 and mum's highest target was £100! Thanks for everyone who bought/donated and helped!

Last year was pretty epic and I didn’t think this year would even match it in awesomeness but it didn’t just meet it, it overtook last year by far.

Next year shall be pretty sweet too from what I already know because Justin Bieber is coming back to uk (2^nd time for a show) and this will be the 2^nd time I’ve seen him and rumour has it that Carly Rae Jepson is his opening act and they both sing my favourite song!

If the world did end this year like everyone reckons then I can go happy but it won’t end because it ends nearly every year and guess what? Still here!

Top #5s

Bored so I'm doing my top 5 things

Songs

1. Beautiful - Carly Rae Jepsen and Justin Bieber
2. fall/ die in your arms / one less lonely girl (can't pick) - all Justin bieber
3. November rain - Guns 'n' Roses
4. bed of roses/ always - Bon Jovi
5. Ready to go/ lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off - Panic! At the disco 

Guys

1. Bondi rescue's Maxi (<3)
2. Justin Bieber
3. Panic! At the disco's Brendon Urie
4. Tom Daley
5. Eminem

Books

1. My sister Jodie - Jacqueline Wilson
2. Love lessons - Jacqueline Wilson
3. Kiss - Jacqueline Wilson
4. darren shan's cirque du freak series
5. Hetty feather trilogy - Jacqueline Wilson

TV

1. Bondi rescue
2. Hollyoaks
3. celebrity juice
4. russel howard's good news
5. red dwarf

Artists (music)

1. Justin Bieber
2. Panic! At the disco
3. My chemical romance
4. eminem
5. Queen/ guns 'n' roses/ bon jovi

Colours

1. purple
2. blue
3. powder colours (baby blue, powder pink etc)
4. red
5. green

Hospital

Hey guys, went to the hospital earlier and the Dr said I’m having the operation in the next two months just waiting for the date and time now. He was a different dr to last time and he just turns to me and says “there’s risk of eye and brain damage ok?” I almost burst into tears! When I got on the bus I read a bit of one of the leaflets…. It’s 0.0003% chance of that happening. I was like gee thanks Doc for explaining that. He also thinks the thing I’ve had the blood tests for isn’t my catarrh so I have to get ANOTHER blood test because my body is fighting an infection but according to this doctor it’s a long shot that it’s because of my catarrh. Then if it’s still high I have to go see someone else at the hospital about it.

Romance

What do you see as romance? To me I'd love to be seranaded by a guy on the guitar singing one of my favourite songs or maybe  kiss in the rain or a pool. That kind stuff. Around where I live most guys will treat you to a kids meal in McDonalds haha.

Some mysterious man once went into the pub where my mum works (it wasn't her shift) gave two women a bunch of flowers each then walked off. The following weekend my mum and I found out who he was and we were chatting to him and he said I was waiting for a tattoo that's just the kinda guy I am. Mum and I thought that ws so sweet.

So guys what do you class as romance from a lady? Maybe just a film, pizza and beer andyoure happy? Maybe it's more?

Ladies what do you wish a guy would do for you that's romantic? Are you like me and want to have a guy play the guitar for you? Or maybe you'd like them to take you away somewhere?

random

So not had the internet for about week but now it’s back I can get back to blogging. Not a lot has gone on lately except I have another hospital appointment Tuesday. Not gonna miss this one no matter what! Winter’s coming and it’s so cold. Need to buy a proper coat, hat, gloves and scarf for when I walk the dog. Winter means Christmas and last year I already had several presents so far I have nothing right now L fallen behind and I need to start ASAP! Winter also means… My birthday soon! It’s also my mum’s and dad’s birthday too in November. Dad’s is 7^th, Mine’s the 8^th and mum’s is the 14^th. My poor dad spent his 21^st birthday in hospital waiting for me. Good thing about having a birthday so close to November 5^th is people carry on with fireworks (especially where I was born) for days afterwards so I was born with fireworks going off near the hospital.

Coffee morning

Today went well. We got everything set up nice and early and one of the women working in the pub suggested donations instead of set prices for everything. This worked out perfectly! Instead of 50p here and there we had people giving 5-10+ pounds for some stuff. The jams sold rather well and anything left over is being kept in the fridge and is being sold tomorrow by another member of staff. People LOVED my cookie monster cupcakes and there was only one left. Saw the effects and they don’t half make your tongue go blue lol All in all was a great day (most of the time) we had a moment of unpleasantness where someone interfered and told a bunch of kids the cakes were free of charge and just being given away so like 15 kids came in and took cakes and we only got 20p off one girl as it was all she had. The woman knew EXACTLY what she was doing as she was of those people who has to be the centre of attention and if not she deliberately ruins what she can

Baking

So tomorrow is my mum’s McMillan coffee morning and mum and I spent like 7 hours baking and decorating cakes. Pictures to follow but now they’re all done and ready for tomorrow. Hope we get loads of people coz me and mum don’t want to bring a single cake home. We don’t want to see another cake for some time J These are some pictures of what we made. I was chief cake maker though mum made some too and she was chief decorator though I did some too (like the cookie monsters eyes and fur with mums help… couldn’t get the fur colour right though with a whole bottle of food colouring lol)

                                                                  Cookie monsters

                                                                           Berry Blast

                                                                     Dainty Daisies

                                                                               Pretty 'n' pink

                                                                                 All that glitters

                                                                                Red velvets

                                      Blue are captain crunch not sure on the white and pinks

Just remember

So a lot of people on twitter and such admit to self harming, or complain about how they look but what peope never remember is they are gorgeous. You don't have to be stick thin with bright blonde hair and pearly white teeth to be pretty. Everyone feels ugly at times it's part of growing up but there will ALWAYS be someone out there who loves you for who you are.

Take me for example: I'm a size 16-18, my hair looks awful as I'm growing the hairdye out and I hate taking photos of myself and when I do take photos I go through loads before I find ones I like.
Some days I hate how I look and it just mkes me want to cry. Other time I think damn I look good! haha.

Your family don't care how you look and neither do your friends and who cares if you're single? I'm nearly 20 and I've never had a boyfriend on bad days yes it does upset me but on good days (which I get a lot) I think who cares? If someone doesn't love me for who I am it's their loss not mine.

To those who self harm because they don't feel beautiful or any other reason just remember there's always someone who will talk to you even if it's  friend you've made online. No one is perfect but don't ever let people feel that you ain't beautiful and that they're better than you because you know something? A beautiful soul is more beautiful than any physical feature someone thinks they have. You are beautiful too & you have a beautiful soul and personality to match which can never be beaten or taken away and that's why some people feel the need to put you down.

So today I have my 3^rd blood test (in the space of like 2 months if that) then I have an opticians appointment so I can have a free trial at lenses to see if my eyes will reject them and to see what it’s like and how much it’ll cost for different types. I’m getting my new glasses Monday but I just want to consider lenses for the future because when I start swimming it’ll help if I have them or I won’t see a thing. Also if I do become a lifeguard being able to see will be a massive help. I can hardly take my glasses with me. They’ll fog up and get water on and smear so I won’t see anything. I suppose the lenses will kinda be just for days and glasses around the evening onwards.

So today I have an opticians appointment for a review then tomorrow I have to have my blood taken (again!) then I have another opticians appointment for a free lens trial. Then the 24^th is hospital for a 2 month review of my catarrh. So many appointments especially as my brother and sister went to the opticians yesterday and my other brother has his today with me. Might get new glasses. Depending on how much lenses are might get them. Cant go swimming with glasses xD 

My heros

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hus_i1bJbvo&list=UU7Tv5IWy7Tsn4warRH0ge_A&index=1&feature=plcp

Ok so I've shared it on twitter and google+ but no harm putting it here too. Just a lil vid to show my heros

Baking cakes!

So my mum and I are taking part in the McMillan’s biggest coffee morning and I tested the red velvets and I’ve never made them before and they came out almost perfect (except for the butter cream but it would’ve helped if I’d let them cool down first. Mum’s gonna do the toppings for me) Its not til the end of the month but I will update with another cake blog when I do them and I will post pictures :D

We (my family) all had one each and they’re lovely but because the butter cream was on a warm cake it melted… straight down my bra and all around my mouth and hands! Talk about sticky!

People by me make no sense

People in my area are idiots! I’m constantly asked for ID even when I’m just buying scratch cards (you only have to be 16) and yet on several occasions I’ve been asked if I’m a mum. Not just to little kids. Once I was on my first day of placement and the chef thought I was a mum because one of the children was sitting on my lap but she was like 2. My 12 year old sister looks about 8 and I’ve been asked several times if I’m her mum like 4 times! And once on the phone someone asked if I was my dad’s mum.I'm also a mum to a 14 year old and a 9 year old and a 3 year old as well as my dad and sister and the child from placement. From now on I might as well reply sure why not I’m everyone else’s mum. I get told I look about 14 (despite being 20 in November) I don’t mind that but I don’t understand how I can look so young and be a mum to like 6 kids. Then I get middle aged men (and young boys) staring at my boobs. Usually around 30+ and 14-15. It’d be nice to attract a guy my own age for once. If I look 14-15 then why are men 30+ staring at my boobs? I’m sorry but a 14 year old will not have boobs my size unless they’re VERY early developers xD They make no sense but they make me laugh. I'm used to it.

phew

Ok had my phone call from my dr and long story short something is high (I don’t know what) and I need a 3^rd blood test and the results are all getting sent to the hospital when I go down. Nothing to worry about and something was said about inflammation in my sinuses but idk what but nothing major or to be worried about

Blood test worry

Little worried because I had to have another blood test as something in my last one was a little higher than it should be by the doctor thinks it’s something to do with an infection. Last time when I rang up I got told that one blood test was fine but I had to come in and talk about one of them and this time when I rung up I got told my doctor needs to ring me and talk to me about it. He now has my mobile number and is going to ring me Wednesday hopefully before 2pm but I’m just a little worried as to why I wasn’t told if it was ok or not. I’m probably just over reacting but I can’t help it.

Bondi makes me wanna change

So I just watched the Bondi episode where Mouse saved the little 2 year old. I couldn’t stop crying, I thought she was dead. As I sit and watch each episode of Bondi rescue it makes me realise. I really do want to be a lifeguard. I have hospital on the 24^th September and when I walk in I’m going to demand I get the procedure ASAP (Don't worry nothing major). As soon as it’s sorted and I’m allowed I’m going to start swimming and losing weight. I’m going to train to be a lifeguard. Bondi has made me realise that maybe childcare isn’t the only career for me and maybe life guarding is the one career I want most. I wish Bondi aired earlier then I’d already be sorted J I’m not sure if going to work on Bondi will ever be an option but I hope to at least get some experience there when I’m ready. I’m even thinking of buying a board and paddling around the little lake near mine as the sea isn’t safe to learn in and also when you get big waves you get smashed into walls and that’s when people die.

Because I couldn’t get a childcare job I thought that was my only choice but now I see that with or without a job I can focus my time and energy on training to be a lifeguard though I know it’ll be anything but easy.

I never once realised that watching Bondi rescue would actually make me want to be a lifeguard and change the way I am so while they'll never know how they're inspiring me I want to thank them ALL anyway :)

Dog day

Had an interesting day involving dogs. Coming back from the bank and a little cocker spaniel ran over and sniffed me then went off the little girl with him apologised and ran with him. I heard her yelling Charlie and I turned to see her run down towards where I just came from then turn and run the other way in tears and I was like “Hey what’s wrong?” and she was saying how Charlie had run away so I said I’d come and find him with her and she hadn’t seen where he went luckily he only crossed the road as she went to cross the road the public were freaking that she’d get ran over and made her wait (there was one car and it was parked) so I dashed over and got the dog and the little girl’s mum had seen us running and followed us bare foot from their house. They said thanks and were so happy he was safe.

Later I took my dog to the beach and she was attempting to bury a stick and had a big swim then on the way home she saw a friendly looking boarder collie and I let her go and smell it (If it looks dangerous I won’t let Poppy anywhere near it) and then it suddenly lunged and went to attack Poppy! The only thing that stopped it was I dragged Poppy and it’s owner pulled the dog away. He didn’t even apologise for his dog lunging at mine. Poor Poppy got so scared she hid behind my legs and then when we saw more dogs she tried to pull me into the road to get well away from them.

Bondi ep

So I watched the episode of Bondi Rescue where Ryan Kim was clinically dead for at least 4 minutes. Watching this was truly moving and as I sat and re watched this with my mum earlier I said to her I would really like to do that. The more I think about me the more I want to get losing weight and training but until this catarrh’s gone then there’s nothing I can do but hopefully it’ll be gone by new year and I can get into losing weight. As it’s so hard to get a job I don’t see how training and getting fit in order to be able to apply for another job would be a bad thing. I want to work at Bondi some day but I’m not sure if that’ll happen due to issues like: money, working in their heat (I’d want a good year of training in their weather) and also blue bottles. I ended up in A&E with our English jellyfish and they’re nothing in comparison to blue bottles. I’m sure I could learn to use a board but I’d need the extra year to learn to swim against the rips and such (I don’t think swimming out of the rapids at a holiday pool counts as much experience) I would LOVE to work at Bondi but at the moment I don’t ever see it happening. L

Watching Reidy, Chappo, Maxi and the lads save Ryan’s life made me realise how incredible it would be for me to do that too. It’s not like I’m jumping into it I’ve given it lots of thought the whole time of watching Bondi for the past year but watching that episode I had the strong urge to train there and then if I could.

Lifeguarding?

So basically I'm trained to work with children BUT there are vitually NO childcare jobs in my area and the interviews I've done I've failed. So I'm looking or a back up. I'm not good at anything other than working with children and retail won't touch me with a barge pole because they want experience but I can't get the experience needed when no one will give me a chance so it’s kind of a vicious cycle. I am volunteering and was told I’d be in the shop on the tills and actually I’m nowhere near the shop instead I help raise money for the RNLI.

I want to lose weight and get fit and thought it’d be good if I had something to work towards. So after watching Bondi a lot and sub consciously checking the beaches when I’m down their maybe I was thinking maybe should train into being a lifeguard? That way if I can’t get a job working with children I can work as a lifeguard. It’ll take a lot of training to get fit but as I’ve always been fascinated in first aid and dealing with injuries then maybe this would be a good idea. I already have a basic first aid training certificate but I’d love to learn more.

I love swimming, the water, first aid and am a good people person. Why the thought never occurred to me to shape up and become a lifeguard was beyond me but maybe this is something I can do whilst still searching for jobs and when the time comes and I still have no job or in years time when I want to leave childcare I can work on the beach.

So any lifguards out there (I will be tagging some Bondi boys in the hope they see and can help) what do you think? It'll take some time once my cattarh is sorted but I've been unemployed a year now and with childcare the only thing I can do maybe it’s time to broaden my horizons.

All I can say is Bondi has made me think long and hard about taking another direction as childcare isn't working out and even when it does am I really gonna work in a nursery my ENTIRE life?

Maxi

Hyper guy who wiggles his ears, is good with kids, surfs and has an awesome sense of humour. What's not to love?  So Maxi (as most of you know) is my favourite lifeguard overall. I'm no sure what it is I think it everything including his charm. Was lucky enough to be in a google+ hangout with the lads and he kept making me laugh. When he told me and showed me that he can wiggle his ears I very nearly went "awww" out loud, I just found it adorable haha. I think he was the main reason I got nervous and rambled a little (and went red) :) I think it's his charm :)

Anyway... Maxi worked so hard and you could see how much this job meant to him and I'm so happy he got it. He has the right amount of drive and passion for doing what he loves most. Even though the lads like pranking him he always takes it in good spirits when others would go mad and he also doesn't over think things he just goes ahead and does it and if it doesn't workout he doesn't mind.

Kerrbox

Kerrbox, The singer, the surfer and the guy who can apparently play the harp with his toes! Totally awesome and I wish he could teach me all three things! I wonder if he has ever tried singing, surfing and harp playing with his toes whilst surfing? Now THAT'S a party trick!

He might be scared of heights but everyone's scared of something. He makes me laugh even if he does sometimes play mean pranks but it's still funny. Just keeps you on your toes.. besides the boys get him back though for sure. He's great at laughing and joking but is super serious and focused when needed. Also he does an amazing Bon Jovi impresion... hair and all! Gotta love box

Deano

Well with Deano one thing I have to say is he still looks about 23ish and when he did that pants shoot and it said over 30's I was like.. so why is Deano there? Took a little while to sink in but I still don't think he looks anywhere near 30.

Deano is such a family man it's so sweet. I loved how he proposed to Lilly and little Lucy looks the spitting image of him when he was her age :)

With Deano he's bit of a softy and if I worked with them or anything I think I'd go to him and H man for help with anything. They both have experience but as I've seen on Bondi, Deano would probably be most patient with me (He'd need a lot of it teaching me things like using a board haha) but he took Tamika under his wing while she was there and he helped her do such a great job. I mean randomly being put somewhere like Bondi must be intimidating so it'd be great to have that one person who will keep a special look out for you and help you especially if you're too shy to ask anyone else.

Gotta love Deano :)

Reidy

Ok so a little while ago I said I might talk about a few of the lifeguards on their own. So I thought as I haven't blogged in a while today would be a good day :) Thought I'd start with Reidy and why I think he's totally awesome :)

Ok so Reidy... lets get the obvious reason out of the way. When he was a teen as I'm sure most Bondi fans know he was a little bit chubby then he lost all the weight, trained super hard and became a lifeguard. Not only do I admire him for doing that but also he's training so hard for all these races and marathons. I read his blog sometimes (and he is the reason why I have a blogger) and I feel he is too harsh on himself. If he misses his target even by the tiniest margine he beats himself up over. I still think he's totally awesome just for finishing! I actually want to have him kinda as a role model for me losing weight when I can start because he has everything you need to succeed: passion for what he wants, strength (phyiscally and mentally), the drive and stamina to keep pushing himself to do better etc. Plus he shows exactly what you can achieve when you work hard at it :)

Another reason would have to be his twitter. I love reading all his tweets especially life quotes and he's such a good photographer. I was one of hose people who wasn't ever bothered abou going abroad for holidays but it's one of those things, when you see what you're missing out on you suddenly change your mind. A combination of watching Bondi Rescue and looking at the lifeguards photos (Reidy's especially) I've realised just how much I really really want to go to Australia and my best friend Holly and I plan to go to Bondi someday :)

Prom!

Not prom season but I'm in the mood to reminisce though it was only last year. It was great :) ok s I didn't have a guy to take but neither did half the girls so my best friend Holly and I took each other... ok we were like an hour late and us plus a few others kept everyone waiting but either way xD.
Now I'm not the kinda girl to wear dresses, make up or do my hair but fuck it, it's prom!

So Holly's sister done our hair and makeup and with my hair being so long that's kinda mainly what made us late.  I'd gone dress shopping with my mum a few week ahead and found a lovely black dress with a silver bit on it plus some silver jewellery and some black heels. (I don't wear heels but had to all weekend because I was a bridesmaid at a wedding the next day)

Anyway got to prom the food kinda sucked and the speeches kinda felt like they were dragging but eventually it was dance time! My whole group of friends danced all night. People kept coming over telling me how lovely I looked and I even got the attention of a cute guy who had been flirting with me for weeks before. I went to ask him to dance but he was surrounded by his mates and I bottled it. He had a big grin and was acting unsure if it was me. He spent the whole night dancing close to me but we never danced with each other properly.  I did get something though from him and his mate being cheeky but enough about that :)

It was amazing and loads of fun and I got many hugs and compliments throughout the night. Sometimes I wish I could go back and relive that whole weekend :) Also that's my google+ DP me and Holly just before setting off to prom :)

BONDI RESCUE

Bondi Rescue

So I wanna chat about random stuff that I love so as this is literally the main love in my life I thought I'd start with this. It's been on for almost a year now in UK (I think) and despite the constant repeats as they won't show any new ones yet I still watch them. My mum always asks if I ever get bored with it as we can actually act each episode out from heart. Honestly? No, I never get bored with it. I saw the adverts and being the weird girl I am instead of thinking "oooh half naked men running around on a beach" like I'm sure a lot of girls did I was more like FIRST AID AND AWESOME LOOKING INJURIES SWEET! (I've kinda grown up loving first aid and just wanting to constantly learn about it, probs from dad being a first aider and his dad being a paramedic)

Anyway after the first season I was like he's in shock and needs the tin foil treatment etc.  then noticed I was talking more like them too xD walking around the shop I saw what the English call flip flops and kinda yelled "hey look thongs!" then I started with the ambo etc.

Honestly you gotta love the show. It's unpredicatable, it's awesome and the lads are so cool. I love that they tweet people and the whole google+ hangouts they did were incredible (not just saying that because I got to talk to them lol) Can't wait for the next set. They always have fun but are serious hen the rescues come around

Everyone has their favourite lifeguard whether it's Hoppo, Reidy, Deano, Jesse or Maxi but Imma have to go with Maxi being my favourite for several reasons :) I might post about some of the lifeguards seperately but for now I'm just gonna spread my love and admiration for all the boys here.

Ok so yesterday I was at he pub waiting for mum to finish work and my hearing went funny an my sight went really bad. Everything around the ages blurred and I felt so dizzy and light headed. Rung the doctor and they only had emergency appointments left. She said (the receptionist) Do you feel this is an emergency and when I expained she said have an emergeny appointment or go to the walk in centre. So basically saw the dr ad he told me to sop taking my antibiotics he thinks i's that causing the prolem (it's happened 3 tims only since being on them) but now I have to go back to the drs tuesday to have my blood taken just in case (my dr had already tested blood pressure, sight, back of the eyes and listened to my heart. All are fine) Then I go back to the drs two weeks after for results. I have literally been in hospital at least once a month since this catarh got worse. Didn't think a sinus problem could do this but I do't mind all the appointments coz soon I'll have this procedure and I'll be better. No more dizzyness, daily nausea etc. As soon as I can I'm hitting the pool to exercise!

Cattarh, Weight loss and my goal

Ok so basically 3 years ago I had bit of an ear infection. My Doctor mistreated it and it escalted and let's just say it wasn't very nice. We moved doctors surgeries and I went in and explained that I hd gloopy sound in my ears and got the odd headache and earache with it. He told me it was Cattarh (sinus thing) and I've been given antibiotics and sprays left right and centre and so far nothings orked. The only reason I'm mentioning this is because before it got bad I was skipping daily super fast for ages and taking at least a weekly walk. I was doing really well and fit into a pair of jeans I never fit into even hen they were first bought. One day though I had a massive headache and had to stop and layface down on my bed until the pain had stopped. Now the only thing I can do is walk (which I do daily with the dog for at least an hour) even running a really short distance for the bus made my head feel like it was going to explode :\ It seem I need a procedure to remove the problem and I have to go back to the hospital on the 24th sept. Hopefully it'll get sorted soon then I get back to losing weight.


My goal is to someday go to Australia and be able to wear a bikini. I'm a size 16-18 and want to get to about a 10-8. I'm kinda self concious about my body and I've never worn a bikini before. I'm not goin to try to diet fully as these never work for me and when I was younger I tried eating a meal a day if that. NEVER do it! I'll cut out snacks all together an eat smaller portions as that along with my skipping and walking worked well. I might lok into this weight watcers thing but I'm not sure yet.

First blog

So this is my first blogger blog :) I'm just planning to use it every so often just to say what's happening and such. I'll probably talk a lot about losing weight but alo the one thing stopping me a the moment. Hopefully I'll get the hang of this soon. I'm also likely to blog videos of me and my best mate and the stuff we get up via youube.