Meeting Emmett

Yesterday was amazing! Just for those who don’t know I went to see one of my favourite actors before he leaves. My mum wasn’t well but I went with some mates and we could not stop laughing the whole time! Mum bought Emmett (actor) a little birthday chocolate bottle from Thornton’s and we got happy birthday Emmett iced onto it and having lunch I dropped some of my money. So I picked up the chair and dropped it straight onto his present! Managed to buy him another (Everyone got him something) So fast forward to when we actually got there and one of the girls lives 10 minutes away and goes all the time so she knows what his car looks like and everything and she said “Emmett’s here” and she’d been mucking around so for a second no one realised she was actually telling the truth.
He came out and was like “does anyone want me?” What he didn’t realise was that everyone out there was actually mainly there to see him (about 20 of us) and he spent time with us all. I got a photo with him and I gave him a kiss! He also signed my mums canvas picture of him (sister got it made for her) and I mentioned she wasn’t well and he put To Carol Get well soon and signed it. When I went over to give him a hug and get a photo my foot sort of rolled to the side and I nearly fell over him xD luckily his arm was already around me so I just wobbled. He just smiled and was like “are you alright?” Turns out his last week is next week AND my mum wants me to take her so I’m going to get to see him again before he leaves.
Also saw two of the girls that work there and got photos with them as well. They were all so lovely!

oh and he tweeted this after he went: To the simply wonderful women who have waited all day at #Oaks to shower me wit such thoughtful b-day gifts,I am truly honoured

We only waited like 2 hours tops. I asked to draw on him (was gonna write DILF on him in black sharpie for a laugh) and he was gonna let me but he had a business meeting and he said I could draw it on paper for him. I just laughed and went if you're going to a meeting I probably shouldn't write on ya its fine :D We just laughed :)

Ugh it’s so unbelievably cold right now! We’re meant to get a blizzard of snow during the night and Liverpool have had snow since 4pm (I live on the other side of the Mersey and we got nothing yet). The cold’s making me ache and to be honest I’m just tired, achy, my sinuses are still not sorted and I’m incredibly cold that 2 pairs of pyjamas and a blanket are keeping me warm!

The worst thing is I have coldest room in the house and we’ve run out of gas. We went to the shops and their machines aren’t working! Someone (brother) took the back of the plug of my electric heater and as much as I love snow it’s kinda ruining my weekend. I was so looking forward to seeing monsters inc. 3D with my best friend but it’s too cold and she’ll get ill before her holiday AND if we get as much snow as they’re saying then we’ll have no trains.

Apparently we’ve all been well prepared for this and yet there’s no gritters out yet that I am aware of. There certainly wasn’t any earlier!

Anyway the resolution isn’t going too bad. I’m eating less, exercising more but I haven’t joined the gym/pool thing yet because I haven’t had the money L Hopefully I’ll start visibly losing weight soon because honestly nothing feels better than people asking you if you’ve lost weight.

update

So I’m not sure but I don’t think the operation was a total success but I think I’m still technically recovering from it as it’s still draining (gross I know) Still get a swimmy head, Gloopy ears and such but my hearings improved a bit and I don’t feel like I’m going to collapse if I do more than walk.

Hope everyone had a fab festive holidays whether you celebrate Christmas or Hanukah or any other festive holidays. I managed to go out and see my friends the Wednesday and Thursday before. The Wednesday we went to red hot and had a lovely all you can eat buffet and Thursday some of us went to town in our onesies after playing games at the birthday girl’s house. (Went a little dizzy when we out but after a sit down and drink I felt alright)

Tomorrow is New years eve and I’m going to babysitting. I’m made up because I’ve been babysitting this family of kids for 7 years and I haven’t seen them too much this year and I miss them. I hope everyone has a fab new years eve and new years day and just remember don’t get too drunk! x

Operation

So I had my operation yesterday. It was a very L O N G day. I’d planned to be up at 5.45am but ended up waking up at 5.20. I got to the hospital by 6.45 and checked in. The receptionist gave me a funny look and was like you’ve come in your pyjamas? I was like well yeah the letter said nightgown and slippers etc. She was like well you should be wearing normal clothes. So I sat there in my pyjamas as the room filled with people in regular clothing. We weren’t allowed anyone with us so I was totally alone and my appointment was at 7am. I wasn’t called down to theatre until 11.30. By then I had already been up for 6 hours. I laid on the bed and they hooked me up to a heart monitor. One nurse was chatting to me and being lovely and I could just hear this rapid beeping. Two drs came to see me and one commented on my heart rate (that was the rapid beeping and believe me it was very rapid lol) one doctor said “well wouldn’t your heart be racing if you were about to have an operation?” the other doctor went “not like that no. Here’s something to calm you down” He put a cannular in my hand and I watched him inject this small amount of clear liquid (plus I was given oxygen). Then he put in ‘the milk’ which makes you sleep.

As he did this I was thinking I wonder when the drowsiness will kick in. Next thing I know I’m hearing voices. One mentioned I knocked my cannular out of my hand as I was coming around. I remember trying to open my eyes but I couldn’t. They wheeled me to my room and I started feeling very sick and I remember asking them to take the mask off because I felt like I was going to puke. They went ok we’ve given you something to take it away. I kept trying to move my arms and legs to jolt myself awake and I asked for water because my lips were so chapped and my tongue was stuck to the roof of my mouth because it was so dry. Then when I came around properly I realised I couldn’t see properly (one risk was eye damage) and I rubbed my eye… They’d put Vaseline on my eyes and not told me.

Once I rubbed it off and came around my mum was there and she was only allowed to see me for 3 minutes. I’d been in theatre for 2 hours (the nurse said 40 mins if I didn’t need too much work maybe less so I obviously needed a lot of work) mum went and I looked down to find a cannular hanging out of my arm where they’d left it and a patch on either hand (which is now two very colourful bruises) I also had a bandage under my nose (and over my lip) I was given some soup and I got it all over my bandage and I said to the nurse I can feel my nose bleeding a lot. Her reply was “it’s just soup” I was like no I mean under the bandage! She went “that’s just hot air” She soon realised how much I was bleeding when she had to change it 3 times because I kept bleeding through.

By the time I got home I had been in hospital for 12 hours and then I had to change my bandage 3 times and to be honest I did it better than the nurse because it took much longer to bleed through and it didn’t get in my way. I wasn’t given anything for pain or any drops for my nose. Instead I was given a recipe and a syringe to make the stuff myself to douche out my nose. I asked the nurse what would I do if I sneezed her reply was don’t sneeze… I’ve sneezed like 30 times and fuck all happened. The nurse also gave me bandages to take home but no tape (thankfully I had some micropore surgical tape from when my dad cut his leg when he fell off the ladder, unluckily for me it was in the car and dad was at work until 11pm so I just dealt with sticky tape) I also wasn’t told to sleep with my head propped up to avoid blood going into my throat but luckily mum told me and I said I’d sleep on the couch so as not to slide flat on my back. I didn't sleep until about 1.30 because there was good TV on haha

Right now I have a bit of a stuffed nose and sore throat and I can’t bend over in case it sets the bleeding off. Cant go out for two weeks but luckily its 2 weeks and a day until I see my friends (I think) so I should be fine to go out. I’ve really missed my friends and haven’t seen most of them since Easter or last Christmas where I’ve just not been well enough to go out.

I was told the operation wasn’t guaranteed to work but so far it seems much better I just have to wait and see.

One of those days

So today I was meant to go shopping with my parents (after my ECG) while my brothers and sister were at school. We get to town and get a call from the school nurse asking us to take my brother to the hospital (long story short he hurt his arm and the walk in centre said fracture they were wrong he’s broke his wrist) so we spent all day in the hospital with him and I went to find out when my operation was going to be and they said they’d ring me. When they rung they said “you’re not due til late January, early February but there’s been a cancellation so how’s next Wednesday for 7am?” I obviously had to say yes so now my operation is next Wednesday seriously early and I should be home by mid- late afternoon (best be back for hollyoaks lol) I may or may not be online because I don’t know how I’m going to feel so if I’m gone don’t worry (if you even notice lol!)

I’m a tiny bit worried but not much (that’ll come as I’m sitting waiting in hospital)

birthday week

So this week there's been 3 family birthdays.

First was my dad's on the 7th and I got him some new shoes that he chose beforehand (good job he did because his feet are size 7 yet these shoes ended up at 8.5)

Then it was mine on the 8th. My 12 year old sister got her mates dad to make me a t-shirt of Maxi which totally rocks. Got some awesome stuff off my parents too including loads of awesome new clothes :D

Today was my mum's birthday. I was excited for this more than my birthday because I had a great idea which today came into practice and worked.My family watch this thing on TV called Hollyoaks (if you're outside of UK I don't think you'll know it) and the guy she fancies in it has recently done a movie. So I bought the movie and got a photo cake of Emmett Scanlan (the one she really likes) and Danny Mac (2nd fave) and she loved that too (especially with where I put the candles haha) I got my sister to make her some "posters" and a t-shirt too she loved th presents :)


We didn't do anything for our birthdys except go out for breakfast. I'm now 20, mum's 40 and dad's 41. We didn't do anything but it was still fun

Just an update

Been feeling crap since yesterday. Light headed, nauseas and aching. This is all part of the sinus problems I have and I actually want this operation soon because while I’ll be nervous going in I know that it’ll end all this shitty feelings and I’ll be able to live my life normally. I’ll be able to go out without a second thought and without taking tablets with me. I won’t have to worry about randomly going deaf when people talk to me and I won’t constantly be thinking “What if I’m sick?” or “What if I pass out?”

My Doctor said it’s like being travel sick. You know when you were a kid and you’d be feeling like you’re about to throw up in your dad’s brand new car and then you’d panic and go dizzy? That’s what I get almost every day. Some (like yesterday and right now) worse than others. I gotta go back and see my doctor very soon but lately I’ve been so tired I haven’t been getting up early enough for an appointment because they’re usually gone within minutes.

Just sitting and waiting for this letter to come through telling me when I’m having this flaming operation now. I know I’m going to be nervous but I can handle that and it’s only natural. I’m ok at the moment but I usually get the worry when I get there. Will keep you up to date if any of you are actually interested. I’m glad I have people that read this because to be honest I thought I’d just be twittering on with no one paying any attention. It’s nice to have this blogger so I can say how I’m feeling at the time as well as doing some interesting stuff (Kind of) My life isn’t very interesting at the moment I know but I’ll try my best to make it entertaining or at least worth a read. Love you all night x

A lifeguard once said this and it stuck with me ever since: “It’s impossible.” said pride. “It’s risky.” said experience. “It’s pointless.” said reason. “Give it a try.” whispered the heart.