One of those days

So today I was meant to go shopping with my parents (after my ECG) while my brothers and sister were at school. We get to town and get a call from the school nurse asking us to take my brother to the hospital (long story short he hurt his arm and the walk in centre said fracture they were wrong he’s broke his wrist) so we spent all day in the hospital with him and I went to find out when my operation was going to be and they said they’d ring me. When they rung they said “you’re not due til late January, early February but there’s been a cancellation so how’s next Wednesday for 7am?” I obviously had to say yes so now my operation is next Wednesday seriously early and I should be home by mid- late afternoon (best be back for hollyoaks lol) I may or may not be online because I don’t know how I’m going to feel so if I’m gone don’t worry (if you even notice lol!)

I’m a tiny bit worried but not much (that’ll come as I’m sitting waiting in hospital)

birthday week

So this week there's been 3 family birthdays.

First was my dad's on the 7th and I got him some new shoes that he chose beforehand (good job he did because his feet are size 7 yet these shoes ended up at 8.5)

Then it was mine on the 8th. My 12 year old sister got her mates dad to make me a t-shirt of Maxi which totally rocks. Got some awesome stuff off my parents too including loads of awesome new clothes :D

Today was my mum's birthday. I was excited for this more than my birthday because I had a great idea which today came into practice and worked.My family watch this thing on TV called Hollyoaks (if you're outside of UK I don't think you'll know it) and the guy she fancies in it has recently done a movie. So I bought the movie and got a photo cake of Emmett Scanlan (the one she really likes) and Danny Mac (2nd fave) and she loved that too (especially with where I put the candles haha) I got my sister to make her some "posters" and a t-shirt too she loved th presents :)


We didn't do anything for our birthdys except go out for breakfast. I'm now 20, mum's 40 and dad's 41. We didn't do anything but it was still fun

Just an update

Been feeling crap since yesterday. Light headed, nauseas and aching. This is all part of the sinus problems I have and I actually want this operation soon because while I’ll be nervous going in I know that it’ll end all this shitty feelings and I’ll be able to live my life normally. I’ll be able to go out without a second thought and without taking tablets with me. I won’t have to worry about randomly going deaf when people talk to me and I won’t constantly be thinking “What if I’m sick?” or “What if I pass out?”

My Doctor said it’s like being travel sick. You know when you were a kid and you’d be feeling like you’re about to throw up in your dad’s brand new car and then you’d panic and go dizzy? That’s what I get almost every day. Some (like yesterday and right now) worse than others. I gotta go back and see my doctor very soon but lately I’ve been so tired I haven’t been getting up early enough for an appointment because they’re usually gone within minutes.

Just sitting and waiting for this letter to come through telling me when I’m having this flaming operation now. I know I’m going to be nervous but I can handle that and it’s only natural. I’m ok at the moment but I usually get the worry when I get there. Will keep you up to date if any of you are actually interested. I’m glad I have people that read this because to be honest I thought I’d just be twittering on with no one paying any attention. It’s nice to have this blogger so I can say how I’m feeling at the time as well as doing some interesting stuff (Kind of) My life isn’t very interesting at the moment I know but I’ll try my best to make it entertaining or at least worth a read. Love you all night x

A lifeguard once said this and it stuck with me ever since: “It’s impossible.” said pride. “It’s risky.” said experience. “It’s pointless.” said reason. “Give it a try.” whispered the heart.