So in the past few months I’ve got a job (been working there about 8 weeks now) I do enjoy it quite a lot but at times it’s been hard mainly just getting used to everything.
Health wise (as I’m sure previous readers are aware I was having seriously chronic sinus problem and the last I updated I had had an operation.) well the operation hasn’t worked. It stopped my symptoms for a bit so I thought I was all better but then they slowly came back and I’m nearly the same I was when I had my operation in Dec 2012 (I was told it could take a year to fully come into effect so was made to wait) now I’m at the point where I’m trying to hide it from work. They know I get sinus problems but like many people they don’t the full extent.
When I tell people I have chronic sinus problems they look at me as if to say and?! And I wouldn’t blame anyone reading this to think the same because personally I would’ve been the same if it was happening to someone else. Thing is it affects me in so many ways so that sitting or standing makes me almost black out or get tunnel vision. (I had this at work once and leant against a wall when outsiders where in and I got pulled into the office because I just looked like I couldn’t be bothered and unprofessional but I didn’t want to tell them the extent of my sinus problems in case they decide I’m not fit for work and I lose my job) my work probably think I’m mostly quite lazy (a lot of the time I have to sit down because of sinus problems and now I have knee problems which I will go into in a moment) but when I’m having a good day I’m really hard working and do all I can barely sitting at all.
People probably get sick of me ranting about my sinuses but truth is I know others have it so much worse and I’m thankful it’s only my sinuses but I’ve had this control my life every day since I was 15 (I’m 21 now) I’ve had to cancel trips out last minute, cancel on friends because it’s making me feel too sick, can’t go in the car or bus for 5 minutes without medication or I come very close to being sick (at one point I went 2 minutes down the road from mine in a car and had to stop and go home because I was almost sick. I’ve had many nights where it’s made me so ill, my hearts been racing and I’ve had to have a sick bowl next to me (the weird thing is it feels like the moment when you’d get car sick and your mum, dad or whoever would stop the car just in time and you wouldn’t be sick, I‘ve only actually been sick physically once… I was in a hotel with my friends and nearly had to go home, I felt much better after.) It’s weird how something as minor as your sinuses can cause such massive problems. Oh and every time I get hay fever or a cold it sends me back to square one and with my sinuses I’m prone to infection. I’m getting them roughly once a month if not more. I’ve only just got rid of one the other week.
Now onto my knees. So I keep bashing my poor left knee off of things (accidentally) tables, doors, walls etc and I’ve actually put a lump and dent into my knee cap, then I was doing squats and lunges (I’ve lost some weight…yay!) and my knee hurt a bit like normal since finding the dent and lump but then it started to swell to double the size of my other knee and by then I was finished with my squats and lunges. My doctor referred my to physio which is coming up in August but my dad said take ibuprofen when it swells and after a week it worked but then it came back. I then messed up my other knee by kneeling on a large Thomas the tank engine toy so now I have another lump and for days I could barely put pressure on either leg (awkward when I was walking to and from work.. Almost 5 miles each way) but now I can’t have my knees bent too long or it gets worse.
I’m 21 and feel like an old person at times but hopefully I can get it all sorted ASAP.
On the plus now I have a job I’m working good hours (flexible though) but I’m getting enough money so as my parents birthdays are 1 week apart I’ve bought them tickets to see the lion king live in London and they’re staying for two nights and I’m giving them train tickets and spends the lot. They won’t have to pay for a thing.
Sorry for the long update and I know you might not care but just getting this written down, even if it’s not read makes me feel a lot better.
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